With endings there will always come new beginnings. On Sunday, February 3rd my season 2 with my co ed bachata team came to an end but earlier that day two beautiful black Dobermans Lola (7) and Adonis (6) came into my life. (Time frames are important to me, thus you’ll often see me referring to dates in future blogs.)

These beautiful sweet faces didn’t just show up one day. The universe had been devising a plan approximately a year prior almost to the date of that one year mark. My girlfriend Liz had reached out to me wondering if I knew of anyone who would be willing to take in one of the two sweet Dobermans because she was relocating to the Big Island of Hawaii. They have some very strict laws and breed restrictions on K9s and she kept getting turned down and being told they would only allow one everywhere she was looking to make her new home. At that time I was purchasing my new home and had mentioned if all goes as planned and she didn’t find anyone that I as a last resort would help her out and would “temporarily” take the dogo in (she didn’t know what dog at the time as duh she loves them both). Fast forward a few weeks… the universe doing what it knows best manages to grant her a way to get both of them out to Hawaii. Thank baby Yeezus bc the same time she was giving me that news I was going to tell her I couldn’t take the dog anymore. My sister had just moved in w her black poodle Mr. Wiggles and according to Liz they didn’t get along w other dogs.

Fast forward almost year later Liz is back on this beautiful 9th island (yes, Hawaiian’s really do call Las Vegas the 9th island) my sister is packing boxes because she’s moving out. I for whatever reason started seeing two black shadows in my hallway upstairs. Mind you Mr. Wiggles is black so often I thought it was him out of the corner of my eye and he used to follow me around and keep me company as I worked from home. One day I asked my sister and niece if Mr. Wiggles had just been upstairs with me, they both looked at me and said no; pointed at him laying very comfortable on the couch and said he’s been chillin there for the past 15 minutes. I’m slightly puzzled but not overly concerned because well let’s face it I talk to dead people for a living 😁 a few days go by I keep seeing two black shadows often on the staircase or in the hallway. I’m thinking who the heck has 2 black dogs?!? Yes, I knew the shadows were dogs (How? Well that’s another blog)

You don’t need to be psychic to know what happens next. 😉

Ring ring… Liz: “Do you know of anyone who can take my dogs?”

I responded something like – Are you serious!? Can you just take a moment and look at the timing of this event right now?

We laughed at the “coincidence” of the timing and then got excited about the new adoption.

My dogs names and meanings:
Lola – is diminutive of the name “Delores” translated from Spanish it is defined as pain or sorrows.
Adonis– in Greek mythology the God of beauty and desire.

Interesting combination you may say, but I can clearly see why I was gifted these two beautiful dogs this year and not just one the prior year. Everything is energy. Names carry energy. Yes, even dog names. Keep reading, I’ll explain.
My life simply hadn’t shifted enough to allow either energy into my life. This isn’t to say the pain I had in previous years hadn’t been enough to shift me to bring or allow Lola in if she would had been selected to stay with me the previous year. However the more I think about it the more grateful I am that I didn’t allow “pain” in on it’s own. Remember Liz didn’t know what dog/energy she was going to leave behind.

I also believe that my sense of worth was still building after giving myself three years to heal after allowing myself to create a life that taught me about luxury but lacked the warmth, affection and the feeling of being desired by my own partner. It had taken me a bit of time to see my own value thus why I can also understand why “beauty and desire” hadn’t come in the year prior either.

Once I was to a level my subconscious mind recognized was good, I pulled in my reflection, my catalyst. Wow did I fall in love. Shit got real. I took my self worth to an entirely new level but enough about that. (that’s another blog) however I mention it here because its important and a major part of my process.

It took both pain and me losing and then finding a desire to live this beautiful life I’ve created to bring and integrate all of these energies.

I had to dig deep, feel all the shit, depression, anxiety, frustration, anger, guilt, shame, and fear. I knew if I wanted to heal it I had to FEEL IT.

These guardians came in because I realized not only that I have an infinite amount of love to give, I had an innate need to nurture. I had to continue to pour my love into not only dance that saved my life, but now into actual lives since at one point I attempted against my own.

These beautiful sweet faces are a constant reminder of what I’ve worked through. They look so tough on the outside and will defend their own life and their masters life but most importantly they love unconditionally.

Both my babies have been previously abused (not by Liz) and will occasionally show signs of the trauma. I mention this because they remind me to continue to love unconditionally regardless of how I’ve been treated in my past. As I continue to heal, release and forgive my past they also get better. They aren’t as jumpy when they see the broom and Adonis now allows strange men to pet him (his mom still does not allow strange men to pet her lol).

Animals have a beautiful way of reflecting love in a way without the use of words. Pay attention and their eyes will always tell you how much they love you.

As humans we have the ability to express our love in different forms. I recommend a book called The 5 Love Languages: The Secret to Love that Lasts by Gary Chapman
Check it out. Maybe you’ll discover a new way of expressing your love as not all of us just want to hear it.

I’m hoping you’ve enjoyed this blog. If you did, leave a comment. Let me know what else you’d like me to write about.

They say a dog is man’s best friend well it makes sense when you realize DOG is GOD spelled backwards.

Happy soul searching!

-Aryana, Lola and Adonis

PS – Lola would like you to know she’s adopted an acronym and she is bringing new energy to our home. Now her name stands for Laugh Often Love Always

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